Monday, May 12, 2008

Out of the stillness...

I put 220 more dollars in. I am excited about that. I am more excited though because I walked two miles today. That is not really the whole story. I didn't really walk it. I really jogged most of it. No, not really. I jogged about a fourth of it. But, that is good for me.

My girlfriend that is walking with me every day did not show up this morning, so it would have been really easy for me to say forget it and just not go. I went home and debated whether to walk. This blog was what pushed me on. I KNOW that it sounds crazy, but it is so true that putting your intentions down on "paper" will get you going. Having comments from folks telling me that they are on my side in this is so helpful as well.

I got up and I walked. And while I was walking I began thinking. I really began to think and think. I began thinking all about the books I have been reading. All the people who have "made it" before me. All those who will "make it" after me. And how I will, too. AGAIN, it is not the money.

I began to think about the author Napoleon Hill who walked every day. While he walked, that was his time to think. He would be grateful while he walked. So, I started doing that. Then, I started thinking about my future and I starting being grateful about that. And then, it started up again. I started seeing my "BIG" future ahead of me.

I don't know what I see. And I don't know how to explain it. I just feel it. I just feel the goodness around me. Then, I stopped walking about midway back home. I just stood there looking out into the field that was there. Just me and the trees and the tall grass.

It was complete silence. It was a ludicrous thing to do. But, I did it anyway. I said it out loud. "If I am doing this right, show me." And then it happened. Out of the stillness and the heat, the cool breeze came. It came up from behind and it blew THROUGH me. I held my arms out by my sides and let it penetrate me. And I felt it with all that I am.

I don't know if you believe in this type of thing or not. But, I know that there, alone, and now, as I write, the tears came and still come. It was bigger than me and it was why I started this journey. I started it to find the bigger things in life.

I have said many times during this blog that this past year has been a very good year. And this morning was a very good morning...

9 comments:

Family said...

Sounds like you had a very powerful, awakening moment today...those are inspiring, and serve as a call to action (or continued action). Stay strong, and always choose to do the walk! :)

Antonionioni said...

Beautiful feelings KC, really inspiring to read about! I love that about the wind. Things must be going your way. The answer is blowin in the wind...

Tanzila said...

wow.. taht must have been some powerful experience.. i mean to just feel taht everything fits... that the penny just dropped must have felt amazing....

thx for reading my blog btw and it was just a one day phase.. sometimes the dissapointments of life just take over and make the day gloomy....

Raffy Jay said...

It feels good KC, that I had brighten up your moment. Lighten up your loads. I don't know what to say anymore, except "It feels good".

Anonymous said...

beautiful, just beautiful ......i must be having your opposite year ...

at least i feel better about it now: for every action there is an opposite and equal re-action ...

live for the breeze. listen to the small voice in the silence ....

fondly,
lady blue

Vartika said...

Hey K.C. it was quite an experience being at your page and reading about your goal and how you’re getting (or trying to get) a few steps closer everyday!
Here’s wishing you all the best in your pursuit of a million dollars and the underlying pursuit of happiness!
Take care!

Katelove's said...

Hello K.c, Just drop by to say hello! Just wondering if you would like to exchange links w/ me. Please let me know. Take care and best regards!

Anonymous said...

i've still not been able to drag myself out of bed early in the morning for a jog,even though i've got multiple alarms set and all.eventually i find myself putting them all off,and getting up a couple of hours later,even though i could do without it.kudos to you for having achieved what is difficult for other people!!

Raffy Jay said...

Thanks for greeting me HIPPY BURTDEI (happy birthday).

Its getting nearer, it would be on the 20th.