Sing along everybody!

"Oh, Yeah, It's My Birthday.. We're Gonna Party Like It's My Birthday!"


No, it's not really my birthday.. That's my attempt at being ultra cool and singing that cool song that all the kids sing when they are excited about something. You know how they dance around and lean back and cross their hands across their chests?


For those of you that do know that song... sing along with me.. "It's My Birthday.." For those that don't, just make up your own song for me and sing it to yourself for me...



I'll wait..






O.K..... Oh, yeah! I got the teaching job that I wanted... In the school that I wanted! In the grade that I wanted! "It's My Birthday!" "Celebrate Good Times, Come ON!!!"


So, there are people that aspire to greatness in ALL kinds of ways.. all kinds of ways. I have thought long and hard about my greatness. How is it that I am going to make my million dollars..


Hmmm. Hmmm... Well, I know that it is not going to fall into my lap right this moment. I know that the main part of my journey is to be a success in each moment. I know that the main thing that I want to do is follow my heart, and I have decided that I want to discover what that really means. One thing I have decided is: that means to follow my feelings. To do what really feels right in the moment.


And when things just start "Happening" for you and they feel right, then maybe that is what you are supposed to be doing.. I think that is what it means to follow your heart.


When I was in the 3rd grade, I loved my teacher, Mrs. Jones. I loved my class. I can picture that class so well. And I truly do remember wanting to be a teacher. While other people were aspiring to other great things, I was aspiring to be a teacher. I didn't think about the money, I just thought about the classroom.


I taught my dolls, my dog, the frogs or the rocks outside. And when I was in the 5th grade, the school was giving away all the books that they used that year because they were getting new ones. I literally made 3 trips back and forth from the school so that I could have an entire arsonal of school books to teach with at home.


I have known since I was a young child that teaching was my calling. I have been out of the teaching profession for quite a while and I have missed it since the day I left. There were various reasons why I left, but since I have been gone, there has been this emptiness that I couldn't quite put my finger on.


So, that brings us to the present. I have this goal in front of me... this million dollar goal. I have not wavered from that... but, as I said earlier, I am not expecting that to fall from the sky, so wouldn't it suit me best to live in the present the best way I know how?


And if I am living my best life right now, and living for an ultimate goal while being ever present, won't I surely get closer and closer? If I am happy, really happy... won't I learn how to be crazy successful in the process?

Soo... I stopped after that last sentence for an entire 24 hours and thought on it. Trying to decide about this whole thing... For some reason, completely out of the blue, the million dollar goal came to me last year.. Me.. this one person who never had a goal like that.

It is not so much of a goal as it is an... attainment... which I guess, yes, is a goal. But, it is not the same as it would be for someone in a business suit going out for the attainment of the money right now. It is, as I have said in one of my earlier posts, it is for the attainment of becoming what it takes to become the type of person who would be able to either:

A. Make that type of money
B. Save that type of money
C. Inspire others to make that type of money

However, those three statements had money all over them... all over them. But, once again... money is paper.. And paper, really is useless unless you know what to do with it. What good is your house, even if it is a really grand house if you don't enjoy it? A really grand house has to be cleaned and furnished and well, you know, you do need to live in it.

What good is it to have it if you are working all the time and never get to see it? We have been down that road, and it was a bit bumpy. I have to say that I am a little glad that we did it while we were young enough to see that it was not all that it was cracked up to be. We didn't see the upstairs as often as we thought that we would. The entire family lived mostly in one room. The little ones were pretty much afraid to sleep in their rooms that we spent an arm and a leg on to furnish.

What a waste of that paper that my husband worked his tail off to make...

Sorry about that trip down memory lane... or rather memory road with potholes... Yes, the house was Be-u-tiful, and it was all the rave, but it was all-the-headache... and well, now we are paying the piper for it still..

So, now, if you will let me come back into the present again... We are back in another beautiful home, but I am really trying to get myself to a place where I am trying to see...

Main focus... main goal... Happiness. True happiness. What is that? I felt that in my last post. Million dollars... yes, that could buy a lot of things... Why has this goal been put into my focus? And it really has... It is on the brain.. Teaching... it is also on the brain, and it really did fall into place, and I feel like I am following my heart on this one.

I feel like I am talking in circles here... if you are reading this, do you feel like you are listening to one of those girls that rambles incessently? Write it out... Write it out... Write it out....

I am getting it out of my head to try to see why I have been given this focus. Hmmmm... I know that it is coming... I guess all of that to say that I know that the good in life is coming my way, and that I feel it.

You ever just "had that feeling"? It's one thing to "have that feeling" for a minute or two.. But to have that feeling for all the time... Yeah, it's good. Not in a delusion of grandeur sort of way, because it is not like that. It's just in a "Life is good" sort of way.

Because like the great scholar, Hannah Montana, says, "Life's What You Make It.. So Let's Make It Right!"

And, I fully intend to... and if for now, if it is my destiny to touch one student's life in some way then that is what I intend to do...

What is much, much more exciting to me, however, is that it may be the destiny of one those student's to cross MY path. It may be their purpose to touch me in such a profound way as to change my life forever. And now that I think about it, I really do have no doubt that that is precisely what will happen.

Because it really is very hard to be in the life of children and not react to their actions, much less the stories behind their actions....

Oh, geez, I have now gotten myself so much more excited about my new job than before, for I now know that this is where I am suppose to be.. I wonder which one of those students will change my life FIRST? And when they do, will I remember to know that it is happening? Surely I will, for that is why I am on this journey...

O.K. back to the present.. Everybody now... "It's My Birthday.. We Gonna Party Like It's My Birthday..." Because I REALLY have a reason now...