Bring on the comments.

3 more dollars. Well, that is 3 more. I didn't produce any more cash today. Nothing just manifested. So, right before I went to bed, I couldn't just leave it at that. I tiptoed into the bedroom and snatched 3 one dollar bills from the hubby's wallet. I had to, or the day would have been a waste. That is how my mind is thinking all the time. 3 is so much better than none. That is a cold, hard, fun, wealthy fact.

Another fun fact that did occur was that my husband found himself at Books a Million looking at books on the same subject of making money. If you only knew what a stretch that was for him. He hates to read. I have been doing this type of research for over a year. Of course, most of my research has been on the metaphysical side of it until recently. And he was really having none of that. He didn't discounted, he just said it was not for him.

Anyway, he is thinking maybe he is ready to get on board with this with me. I am about to bounce off the wall with excitement about this. I know like I know that this goal will occur for us. I have found that faith that I have heard so much about . Maybe I will go into that more as the blogs go on. It was a very long process with a very long history behind it.

If my husband can find his faith, that would be awesome on so many levels. I can't do it for him. The fact that he is even looking is amazing, to say the least. But, again, he will have to do it own his own. Faith and knowledge is something that is extremely personal.

This whole goal seems to be about money, but it is so much more than that. Money is the concrete goal, but I had to get happy with myself first. That came first, and that is where the soul-searching came into play. That took a lot of time. Many, many years that finally came to fantastic climax this past year. Then I just knew it my time.

Anyway, that is another story for another day. I have been thrilled to be getting my first comments. That means that there are folks that are supporting me. That is something that I know also is true. I know it with all that I am. If people take time to write comments to me, then I can really feel their energy being sent to me in support. It spurs me own in my quest. I think of their comments during my day, and I feel their support. It makes me want to fulfill my goal even more. It makes me want to encourage others to do the same.

So, for those who have commented....I say it again, you have been led here for a reason. Thank you so many times over!

It is given.

1000 more! Yeah, I said it! I went from 25 dollars one day to 1000 dollars the next. And I have been on this road for a relatively short time. The thing is though, I have been on this road for quite a long time mentally. I am just now putting it into solid action.

I guess it was like everyone else. I always thought that since I didn't have a huge amount to start with that it wouldn't make a difference. So, I just made a decision to do it. I started with zero dollars and a decision, and here I am a few weeks later and 1000 dollars was put into the stash.

Here is what happened. I am a very firm believer in reading books on the subject of making money and self-improvement. The reason being that if you want to learn how to cook, you read cook books. Well, I want to learn how to make money and I want to learn how to enjoy the journey along the way. These are things that I obviously have missed for 40 years. So, I have for the past year immersed myself in both subjects.

I don't have time to read. That would take forever, right? So, I download the books to my Ipod. That seems like it would cost a fortune, right? Well, each download is about 18 dollars or so. It takes me about 4--5 days to make it through one of the books. And I usually listen to each book once and then go back and listen to others that have made a particular impact on me. So, I am spending about 20 bucks a week on books. But, they are changing my way of thinking which is in turn changing my actions. This is in turn changing my future and the future of everyone around me. It starts such an unbelievable chain reaction that the minimal costs outweigh the benefits.

I keep the ipod on doing mundane tasks or in the car when alone, at the grocery store or at ballgames. No one knows what I am listening to, all the while the inspiration that is coming in constantly is overwhelming.

Anyway, getting back to the 1000 dollars. Right now, I am listening to a book which encourages setting a small goal for the week. My goal was 100 dollars. Then I thought, No way, Let's go for 1000. This was yesterday. Yeah, yesterday! My husband came in this morning and asked me to transfer 1000 into the stash (which would normally be used for bills). It was part of the tax refund check. His original plan for that was to pay off the credit card bills.

I have explained to him that that mountain will be there regardless, and that we need to set aside a goal amount. That money cannot be touched unless it is for the goal. As long as the bills are paid, and we have a big savings, then our confidence in our future will feel secure. Then we will not feel the need to use credit cards needlessly for we will know that we have a big bank account. It is a huge cycle, but a good one. But, the cycle has to begin somewhere. It sounds like a paradox, but it is not. There would be no need to have a debt on credit cards with several hundred thousand dollars in the bank, right.

But, the catch is... we have to pay off the credit cards while building the stash at the same time. Most people would not find that fun, but, hey, I guess at 40, you find your fun where you can, huh? If we can pull this off, we will have a blast... and honestly, I have no doubt that we will.. No doubt.

So, today I have officially opened the account, the money that had been put in the stash has been put into the bank and we are on our way OFFICIALLY! Join us!

The others

Put 25 more dollars in yesterday. Snagged 5 more out of my husband's wallet yesterday morning. Again, not stealing. It's my money too, you know. Just this time, the money is going toward the common goal. And it is not to be touched. I have set up an account for the goal actually. So, the goal is now officially concrete.

The other 20 came from the usual source. The grocery store. Took an extra 20 out from the checkout. Came home and put it in the stash.

I have no idea yet what I will use the money for. That is an interesting question. I have no use for a huge home. We built a large home a few years ago, and it was not all it was cracked up to be, for me anyway. It was a lot of maintenance. Of course, I had small children at the time, and maybe I was just not ready for it. I have heard that most people are not ready to handle real wealth until the age of 40. That may be true. We will have to see.

I think I am more interested in the journey of it all, as I said before. I have learned that money is after all, just paper and metal. It is what you do to make the money and how you use the money that counts. I truly do know that living life to the fullest is the joy and that the money is the perk that follows that. I know that sounds like the ultimate cliche, but I think that cliches are time tested.

I am continuing to do as much research as I can on how to accomplish this dream. It seems that most people are trying very, very hard to get rich the easy, quick way. I think that they are missing the point. While that would be great, and I will take it, I have to say that I love my life right now.

To those who would say that I sound like I am contradicting myself, I would say this: I do love my life right now, and that is why I want to improve it. Because if my life is wonderful now, how much more wonderful will it be if it keeps improving. There is no sense in remaining stagnant or going backwards. That is my purpose. Self-improvement and self- enhancement.

And I was amazed in my research to see that I am not the only one who is doing this. I found a couple of other people who started out with the same goal as I did. Only they started a couple of years ago. Maybe this was a "thing" a couple of years ago. I don't know. If so, I missed that boat. I was amazed. But, if there is anyone who wants to do this with me, please jump in. Because it is true on any plane of existence, where two or more are in agreement on something, the odds of it occuring go up tremendously. And that is a fact...

Let Hubby In

Put 5 more dollars in. That's 5 more. I'm moving on up. I will meet that goal yet. I really do feel very close to it. Other would definitely discourage me about this, therefore I am choosing very wisely who I talk to about this. If I feel that someone will tell me that it can't be done, they will not be told. If I feel that they will look at me with any condescension they will not be told. I do not want any reason to give up. I don't want any excuse.

I did tell my husband today. That took a lot of courage to do that. He has been the one that I have allowed to pull me down in most of my endeavours over the last 17 years. I have blamed that on him over the last years of my life. He is a very negative personality. I used that to say that was the reason for my decline. And since I finally got my act together last year and began reading and researching and found out the TRUTH about life and the real WAY that life works, I realized that it really begins with me. I am the only one that can change my situation.

At first I had no idea what the hell that meant. Then I realized that I had to change my own outlook on me. I had to figure out who I was and then everyone around me would not affect me. I did do that. It took me several months of reading and meditating...something I had never done. But, once I figured it out...I knew, and there I was happy, and there was not a whole lot that my husband could say that was going to make me unhappy again. And the thing was...I don't think he had really been trying to all along. I had just been trying to take things so damn personally. Ugh.

Anyway, things are so much better now. I went off on a tangent there. All that to say that I talked with him about this million dollar plan. He does agree, but not like I do. I told him I was doing it with or without him.. So it's out there now...

Looking for ideas

Put 5 more dollars in today. I know that it doesn't seem like that is much to the outside world, but I know in my own way that it brings me closer to my goal. It is more than zero dollars closer.

I went on the internet today and punched in "How to Make a Million Dollars". I was astonished at the findings. There are so many scams it seems. But, then I wondered if they really were scams. Or were they people who were just trying to get ahead. Maybe they are just so eager to do it quickly that they were not willing to enjoy the ride.

While it is hard to wait on it when you know that it is coming, I think that research into any project might just be the key. On first glance into any of those websites, it looked like they all would be a great idea. I mean, if I could just sit at my computer and punch in rebates and make 500 a day, why wouldn't I? But, then, after looking into that racket, I saw that maybe that wasn't all it was cracked up to be.

But, then I looked into a couple of web sites that put down that type of "scam" and those people were trying to sell the complete opposite type of racket, which was to work for just 200 extra dollars a month. Well, that is not what I am looking for either.

I guess right now is just my time for research. It is interesting to say the least. And I guess I can't stress enough what a change in thinking this is for me to even have this goal. It really has been only a year ago that I was just going through the motions of life, and here I am on my way to millions!

Scouting around

Put 10 more dollars in from my husbands wallet today. I wonder if he is going to notice and ask me. I doubt it. I don't want to lie to him, but I don't want to tell him either. I just don't think that he would be on board with me about this. If he were though, this would be so much bigger. When 2 or more agree on a common goal, so much more can be accomplished.

I haven't really given him a reason to trust me on goals. I have the degrees to prove that I have a stick to it kind of quality, but not in business. Or in any kind of self discipline type of situation, so this would be hard to prove. But, this one I feel in my heart, in my gut, and in my bones.

I have started doing research on wealth and money. I don't want to jump on the first thing I see, but I want to reasearch for the next few months on how you raise it, what is the first steps you take. I know that right now I am taking baby steps. And I am okay with that. When it comes time to invest, I want to know that I am doing the right thing. I have afeeling that because I am doing this right, the right thing will show up for me.

I did break down and tell my best friend about it. She didn't scoff at me like I thought that she would. I explained to her that a million dollars is a lot of money, but there is actually so much more than a million dollars out there to be had. I know that I can do this. I know that I can. I must be able to, for I feel that this is my destiny. There would be no reason for me to be aspiring to do this. Why would I even be wanting to do this. Money doesn't interest me, yet here I am wanting it. It's not the money that I want, it is the use of the money that I want. I am so excited about what I will be able to do with the money. I have the money conciousness know.

I already feel it flowing towards me and I don't know how to explain that. It is as if I am a magnat pulling it toward me. I swear that is what it feels like. I don't know where or how or when, but it is coming. I believe in this so forcefully. I don't even have a preference for how it is going to be done, which is a positive for that means that I am so open to possibilities.

No Sweet Tea.

Put 40 Dollars In today! That is awesome! Seeing how easy it is to do. I just couldn't believe that I was able to do that. I took 20 dollars out of my husband's wallet this morning and put it in the Secret Stash, and then when I went to the grocery store I wrote the check for 20 dollars over the amount. Came home and put that cash into the stash.

I was not overly crazy about being miserly at the grocery store, but I was certainly concious. It was in the little things. Before, I would have bought 4 kinds of pop tarts. I bought one box. I would have bought 3 boxes of cereal; I bought one. It was little things like that. The conciousness has changed. I am again amazed at how fun this is.

It is such a good feeling to know that I have such an amazing goal. (I need to find another word verses amazing--I am wearing it a bit thin, but since this is my first stab at writing anything, it will have to do for awhile.)

One big accomplishment that I made today was driving past a restaurant on the way home from the grocery store. I had a craving for the sweet tea that I get there a couple of times a week. I actually pulled into a parking space in front of the restaurant. I opened the console and saw the 20 dollar bill that I had just received from the grocery store. I knew that I purposely got that 20 to put into the stash toward my million dollar goal. I have made a vow not to touch that money. Even it was only for a cup of sweet tea.

I pulled out of the parking space, leaving the craving behind. That may seem very trivial, but it was something that I would not have done a week ago. It was a thought that would not have even occured to me. This is exciting. A million dollars awaits. I would love to have my husband in on this with me. I wonder how much I will have to save before I can tell him about it. I would imagine several thousands, maybe tens of thousands, huh?

I read that you can only tell of your goals after you have accomplished them so that you cannot be talked out of them. I see why now...